They're wrong about pain.
It doesn't make you a better person eventually.
It makes you bitter and more able to lose your humanity.
It makes you numb.
It makes you disconnect and realize that people are inherently selfish.

twenty ten

was one hell of a year. and it was a-fuckin'-mazing.

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"Little Sinclair, listen: I will have to go

away. Perhaps you 'll need me again sometime,

against Kromer or something. If you call

me then I won't come crudely,

on horseback or by train. You'll have

to listen within yourself, then you will notice

that I am within you."

Hesse's Demain

islands and cities

this show

its official.

nothing in my normal life sounds as cool anymore.

not without a british accent.

saturday.

my room is disgusting.

literally. disgusting.


i've been awake since seven this morning.
and when i woke up i thought, "i have to pee"
and after that extraordinary event i assumed it would be best to clean my room.


but instead i climbed back into bed and read hyperbole and a half for about two hours.

i have never felt so close to my age.

5

(i'm sick of wishing)